Who can truly feel it
How can you keep it
It’s like one moment my heart is filled with so much affection
And before I can even blink
It’s gone
It’s me
I’m broken
And no one can love someone who is broken
So why do I want you to love me?
don't forget
Just be happy
Just be grateful
Don’t have any emotions
Other than positive ones
And then
People might actually like you
Just remember to always put on the mask
Because one slip up
And everyone is against you again
Courage the cowardly dog
Most days
I am awe-struck
Fully involved and enveloped
You can’t see how deep I’ve fallen
And I’m so scared
You’re going to leave me in the dark
Day 1
I am eager to report that day 1 of NaNoWriMo was a success! Yesenia and I have both reached our quota, and with a cutie like her inspiring- who wouldnt reach it!
Getting the first 1,666 words together for the first day really wasn’t a challenge, the hardest part is coming up with the idea. Let’s be real, not everything written is going to be in the final. The whole purpose is to have a completed VERY rough draft written by the end of November.
Using the free NaNoWriMo website, which I will link here, to track your writing and also buddy up with people- finding motivation will be a breeze! Buddy up with me if you’d like! My username is JocysAdventures. We all know I can use all the motivation I can get for this!
November is going to be a great month to the rest of my year! With a new job offer I just recieved and now a fully written rough draft of a book, that I personally feel is an amazing story, I know I am finally going to be at peace with everything.
I am going to do my best to write as much as I can every day for NaNoWriMo as well as blow my new jobs expectations of me out of the water!
I miss you dad, and everything I do now is to honor the life you are no longer able to live. I will live for us both.
Get writing everyone! You can do it! Don’t let the word “can’t” hold you back!
Life is what you make it, so don’t make it a pain 😉
Wow, Joc
Whenever I promise positivity I just disappear, thats a little ridiculous. I am working on things and being happier and finding myself. I am also working on myself too! I’m heading to the gym to get my endorphins up! NaNoWriMo is coming and I need to be mentally AND physically well and organized!
Rock beats glass
Think it into existence
This fantasy, dreamland
A place where actions and words mean nothing because your thoughts are your reality
But also, coexisting in this newly found universe,
A law that
Even though pictures are worth a thousand words, actions speak louder than all of them
In this place, where you can take a compliment and completely turn it into the biggest insult ever seen,
You can also take those small gestures and craft them into this meaningful deeper level of comfort
A commitment that
May be over looked by many
But not by you
Mother did say,
Even the solidest of glass hearts
Can be crushed by the weight
Of hard headedness
Gaviotas
Volando
Las gritas que pegan
Siempre timbrando
En Europa gritan
En los Estados Unidos
Ni un piyo
Las escucho
En mi mente
Cuando extraño
A Viveiro
Flip the switch pt.2
My happieness
Couldn’t have been
Locked away that long
I remember her smile
Her laugh
Her energy
I may have pushed her
Away before
Things have changed
I want her here
Back with me
To make me smile again
Like we used to
She is a sunshine
I have neglected for so long
I deserve me
And with her
I will be my happy self again
Feeding
There are plenty of ways
I find myself
Feeding this
Anxiousness
Inside me
The hardest part
Is finding ways to starve it
While trying to bring
A different me
Back to life
I remember days
When I was young
Sitting on a couch
Trying to figure out
Just how I got to be
So sad
But I never sat on a couch
And thought about all the ways
I could be so happy
My grandmother said
It’s because my parents
Didnt hit me enough
Where my mother says
Its a chemical imbalance
I genetically inherited
From the crazy
My father said
Its from taking things
The wrong way
To stay sad
Instead of taking things
Positively
To be happy
But I say
It’s because
I don’t know
What I need
To be happy
I don’t know if its
Friends
Family
Life partner
Life partners?
Animals
Ice cream?
A new pair of boots!
Yeah, I like that one.
